K i really havent posted for a long while...

I was suddenly wrought by a sadness/
fear/anger kind of emotion. i forgot exactly what.
How come like tt i wonder..

ahh i forgot what it was suddenli jus feel pissed

I do not want to languish the way this fren i
noe does the "ohwoeisme" pattern
even not verbalised

who can i trust?

I have God, and my hope
in Jesus Christ
Christos...
tt is true

among frens...? No no i do not descend into depression
no but heard somethin fr fren tt got me feeling.

how much do we lie to ourselves?
how much do we lie to others.
Perhaps i use an over-strong term
maybe not lie
but delude...?
i think i noe a fren who lies to himself often...
so much so he believes... perhaps tt jus my pride
egoist ...
i used to trust him implicitly,
but much less after certain events
n now i wonder ...
problem is often when we speak,
i somehow feel guilty, "oh i have judged wrongly"
when a 2nd conversation would suggest tt i did not,
and other sources support this
i consider tt this fren has from the start,
been half-truthful since...
i detest half-truths
yet i think i become one such.

I lost passion, idealism,
n come to reality.

i blabber on full of crap.
shall desist.